Mel

Fri, 16 Apr 2004 05:31:58 GMT

I wish I could sleep with you every night..
I love you.

sidenote: I love Taya and Ron.

You know...

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 02:06:15 GMT

I just wish you could see what I see.
Put yourself in my perspective.
Trust me, it's not bad, AT ALL.

....You'd be impressed...

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 02:01:38 GMT

Fri, 13 Feb 2004 23:42:27 GMT

WOW!!!
Life loves me.

hmmm YEAH!

Mon, 09 Feb 2004 06:10:56 GMT

shut the fuck up.
this will work out you stupid fuck(s).

Sidenote: I HATE fake people who don't show their emotions and people who don't FUCKING mind their own business.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MITZI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love all of my friends..

who knows...
Perhaps you are the one who makes me a better person.
You know... you make me want to cry because you really do amaze me.

I look foward talking to you each minute of the day..
or.. I always want to satisfy you in each and every way..
or want to buy you millions of things...
make you feel better when you feel ill
help you when you look helpless
make you happy when you're frustraited
put my cold hands on your cheeks when you look uncomfortable and hot.
fix your hair when it's messed up
call you immediatly after school
kiss your neck every second
wanting to just run and jump on you

I am in love with.. that little eye-twitch thing you do every 5 minutes..
that weird look on your face when you're pissed off...
the way your personality totally changes when you're around adults
when you whine to me
your bashfullness
Your 'serious' face..
Your obession for music.. it's adorable.
the way you hardly eat anything through out the day..
our little adventures
watching you sleep
listening to you breathe..
hearing you take showers
laying next to you
touching your tummy
rubbing your back
kissing you.
hugging you
laying on you
laughing with you

I really don't know what to do.

This is amazing.

Tue, 06 Jan 2004 23:38:33 GMT

I feel like I'm floating on a cloud...
I really don't know what to do.

And I love him.

Sat, 03 Jan 2004 07:23:59 GMT

This is what I'm talking about. Yeah.

I don't know much, but I know I love you.

Tue, 30 Dec 2003 01:00:39 GMT

Yeah.
I've been scared. I imagine how it will be when we aren't together anymore... and it scares the shit out of me. I'm really happy, and I have realized that I can act however I want to act in front of him-- when in the past I haven't been able to do that. We're extremely close and open with eachother..
I love him, a lot.

I've been realizing how much I love my friends, too. Especially Taya.
We can relate in so many different ways... and it seems almost impossible.
Whenever she's having a bad day, I try to fix it.. just like how she does for me.
A lot of the same things happen to us at the same time.. I love her so much.

Wow.

Thu, 25 Dec 2003 07:56:15 GMT

This is so great.

Hmm yeah.

Tue, 23 Dec 2003 02:12:06 GMT

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I MISS HIMMMMMMMM

Thu, 04 Dec 2003 20:38:22 GMT

I'm at school right now..
And well..
Now I realize why I hate it.

Free your mind.

Wed, 03 Dec 2003 08:08:12 GMT

Last Person Who...

.x. Slept in your bed? Taya

.x.You saw today? My mom.

.x. Saw you cry? My sister

.x. Made you cry? My parents

.x. Spent the night at your house? hmm... stephanie?

.x. You shared a drink with -
alcohol? Don't drink.
soda? I don't really drink soda, either.

.x. You went to the mall with? Taya

.x. Yelled at you? Mom

.x. Sent you an email? Brent.

.x. Said "I love you"? Mom

.x. Been to New York? Never.

.x. Been to Florida? Never.

.x. California? I live there.

.x. Hawaii? A summer ago.. It was amazing.

.x. Mexico? Never.

.x. China? Never.

.x. Canada? A few years ago.. absolutely beautiful.

.x. Danced naked? It's too cold to do that.

.x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happens the next day? I don't recall.

.x. Stalked someone? 2 years ago.

Pick One...

.x. Apples or bananas? Apples.

.x. Red or blue? Red.

.x. Walmart or Kmart? Walmart.

.x. Math or English? English.

.x. radio or CD? CD.

.x. drawing or painting? Painting.

.x. High school or college? College.

The Last Few Questions...

.x. Last time you went out of the state? a summer ago.. to Hawaii.

.x. Lucky number? 5

.x. Things you like in a girl/guy? Eyes.
.
x. Weirdest thing about you? I have weird habbits.
.
x. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Yes/No

.x. What do you think of ouija board? I would never ever use one.

.x. What book are you reading now? None.

.x. What's on your mouse pad? Black

.x. Favorite board game? Clue.

.x. Favorite magazine? AP

.x. Favorite sound? Rain. The snapping of hair. grinding my teeth.

.x. Worst feeling in the world? Wanting something soo bad, but knowing you won't ever have it.

.x. What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? Of Fuck.

.x. Do you like scary or exciting rollercoasters? I love both.

.x. How many rings before you answer? Three.

.x. Future daughter's name? Maddi.

.x. Future son's name? Aiden.

.x. Chocolate or vanilla? Vanilla

.x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? My Pillow.

.x. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? Traveling and helping people at the same exact time.

.x. What are you going to do after you finish this survey? I am going to go do my bed.

.x. What was the last food you ate? Cheese.

.x. you bored? Just a bit.

.x. How many buddies are on? 10

.x. Last movie you saw? Elf

.x. was it good? Insanely funny.

Lay your head to rest..

Tue, 02 Dec 2003 19:29:29 GMT

So I am sick..
Sitting here, waking up at 11 in the morning..
Listening to Heart-What about Love
Wanting my senior prom to come..haha
Really wish I didn't let other people affect my opinion on certain people..(if that makes any sense at all)
And...
My head keeps feeling like it is going to fall off
I am about to sneeze
Needing to take a shower, but head hurts so bad I can hardly move.
Changing songs...
Killswitch..ahhh.
I feel better now.

With him I need not pretend...

Mon, 01 Dec 2003 01:24:04 GMT

Hey guys, guess what?
Bury your dead and Scars!!!
Tomorrow!!!!

good stuff.

Fri, 07 Nov 2003 01:16:27 GMT

You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.

What kind of kiss are you?
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And you know, this could be the last day.

Wed, 05 Nov 2003 02:40:43 GMT

I want to go to New York.
Linds and I were talking about it the other night..
How we would actually get what we wanted.. How we probably would not complain half as much as we do now... and how it would just be amazing.
Hmm.. Someday..Someday.. I have faith in that.

School has been terrible. But to be honest, I have many things to look forward to that keep me going. I have incredible grades.. and this is the first time I actually feel proud of myself for getting them.

I want hot hair.

Close your eyes and take your last breath.

Sun, 02 Nov 2003 04:48:26 GMT

Last night was really fun. It was quite enjoyable spending time with a few people that I don't normally spend time with.
Today, Linds and I walked to this store to take in pants and what not.. it was a nice walk.. then we discovered this really awesome vintage store.. which made Linds and I EXTREMELY happy.. we both bought shoes.
My parents are going out of town in two weeks.. and I have no idea how to take advantage of that.. hmm, I'll think of somethin..

But you won't feel a thing...

Thu, 30 Oct 2003 06:59:55 GMT

mood:happy
001.name: Melissa
003.location: Salinas, Ca
004.religion: No religion, lovee god.
005.occupation: I suppose soon to be making pizza.

APPEARANCE

001.hair: short blonde
002.eyes: hazel
003.height: five foot six and a half

STYLE

001.clothing: Nothing too special
002.music: All sorts
003.make up: heavy eye makeup
004.body art: None

RIGHT NOW

001.wearing: ex bf's boxers and red 'J' shirt.
002.listening to: Seinfield
003.thinking of: Sex

LAST THING YOU

001.bought: CD
002.ate & drank: peanut butter sandwich, milk
003.read: a post
004.watched on TV: the news

EITHER / OR

001.club or house party: club
002.tea or coffee: coffee
003.achiever or slacker: both
004.beer or cider: cider
005.drinks or shots: drinks
006.cats or dogs: cats
007.single or taken: single
008.pen or pencil: blue or black pen
009.gloves or mittens: gloves
010.food or candy: food
011.cassette or cd: CD
012.coke or pepsi: Pepsi
013.hard or mild alcohol: I could care less.
014.matches or a lighter: matches
015.sunset beach or the bold and the beautiful: I don't give a fuck.
016. Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey: Most definitely Oprah

WHO DO YOU WANT TO

001. kill: Mean people
002: hear from: Who knows...
003. get really wasted with: could care less
004. look like: Britanny Murphy or Jaime Pressley
005. be like: Myself

LAST PERSON YOU?
001.touched: Steph
002.talked to: Steph
003.hugged: Steph
004.instant messaged: Steph
005.kissed: Taya
006.who broke your heart: Shouldn't say

WHERE DO YOU
001.eat: In the kitchen
002.dance: my room
003.cry: anywhere
004.wish you were: SF

HAVE YOU EVER

001.dated one of your best friends? Yeah..
002.loved somebody so much it makes you cry? Oh yeah.. definitely
003.drank alcohol? Yes, once.
004.done drugs? Never
005.broken the law? I believe so..
006 ran away from home? Never
007.broken a bone? Never
008.cheated on a test? Of course
009.skinny dipped? Never
010.played truth or dare? Yes
011.flashed someone? Never
012.mooned Someone? Never
013.kissed someone you didn't know? technically, yes.
015.been in a fight? Not physical.
016.ridden in a fire truck? yes
017.been on a plane? yes
018.come close to dying? Everyday
019.cheated on your boy/girlfriend? Never
020.gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride? Yes
021.eaten a worm/mud pie? Yes
022.swam in the ocean? yes
023.had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up? Yes, of course.

Let your colors collide...

Mon, 27 Oct 2003 03:29:38 GMT

Hey.. someone should give me money and a ride to Sf..
I'm dieing.. this is torture.
.I want to go again.

Sun, 26 Oct 2003 00:16:11 GMT

It's really hot you guys.

To whom this may concern

Fri, 24 Oct 2003 01:55:53 GMT

All of you guys should give me ideas for what I should be for Halloween..

Cool things.

Tue, 21 Oct 2003 06:23:54 GMT

That's right.

Tue, 14 Oct 2003 03:07:43 GMT

Yes. Hair is growing out. Woo!

Sun, 05 Oct 2003 07:42:30 GMT

Ah.. sf was much fun.
Quite beautiful.
The show was okay..
Talking to Timo now.
I'm happy.
At steph's house...<333

what if i told you...

Thu, 02 Oct 2003 05:20:19 GMT

in the last 48 hours
01. Cried: yes
02. Bought something: no
03. Gotten sick: yes
04. Sang: yes
05. Eaten: yes
06. Been kissed: nope
07. Felt stupid:yes
08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't:yes
09. Met someone new: yes
10. Moved on: no
11. Talk to an ex: nope
12. Missed an ex: yes
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: yes
14. Had a serious talk: yes. unfortunatly.
15. Missed someone: yes
16. Hugged someone: yes
17. Fought with your parents: yes, of course.
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: Yeah.. just a bit.
Social Life:
01. Best girl friend: Steph
02. Best guy friend: John
03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Noo..
04. If no, current dating partner: Steph
05. Hobbies: eating. sleeping.
06. Pager:8312351506
07. Are you center of attention or the wallflower: The lone flower.
08. What type automobile do you drive:yeah.. I'm not quite there yet.

10. Would you rather be with friends or on a date: on a date
11. Where is the best hangout: hmm...SF.
12. Do you have a job: nope
13. Do you attend church: never.. although, I do love god.
14. Do you like being around people: Yes. Always.
Who:
01. Have you known the longest: Taya.
02. Do you argue the most with: Taya
03. Do you always get along with: Steph
04. Is the most trustworthy: Taya and steph.
05. Makes you laugh the most: taya and steph
06. Has been there through all the hard times: taya
07. Has the coolest parents: ruben
08. Has the scariest siblings: no one does.
09. Is the most blunt: my sis.
10. Is the smartest: taya
Personal:
01. Who is your role model: Annie.. I love her life.
02. What is some of your pet peeves:ehhh
03. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: Yes. always.
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: who the fuck doesn't?
05. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: Mhm.. not perposely.
06. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): yes
07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: of course
08. Would you rather be dumper or dumped? dumped..
09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": relationship
10. Want someone you don't have right now: Yeah.. usually always do.
11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: Yes.
12. Do you want to get married: Yes
13. Do you want kids: Not quite sure yet. But if so, one.
14. Do you believe in psychics: Yes. I'm one.
15. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: I can only imagine it.

16. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: facee
17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: not too sure at this point.
18. Are you happy with you: Surprisingly, yes.
19. Are you happy with your life: nope
20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: My lonliness.
[ Current Clothe ] black/ jeans.
[ Current Mood ] Tired, lonely, and bored all at the same time.
[ Current Music ] Scars
[ Current Taste ] sweets
[ Current Make-up ] plain, nothing too exciting.
[ Current Hair ] attempting to grow out/blonde
[ Current Annoyance ] parents..my emotions.
[ Current Smell ] my very sexy perfume.
[ Current thing I ought to be doing ] showering
[ Current Desktop Pictur] City picture.
[ Current Favorite Artist ]-
[ Current Favorite Group ]-
[ Current Book you're reading ] lord of the flies. ha.
[ Current CD in CD Player ] mix
[ Current DVD in player ] blah
[ Current Color Of Toenails ] purple and clear
[ Current Refreshment ] water and orange juice
[ Current Worry ] my grades. sadly.